it's been a difficult day. this morning, after several appointments with doctors & specialists & many months of waiting for referrals, i had what may be the first of a series (depending on what today's test shows) of EEGs in an attempt to see what's been going on in my brain. although it was the opinion of the consultant neurologist that the "absences" were more than likely stress-related rather than epileptic, tests are nevertheless being done, which will either show nothing & confirm his opinion, or show nothing & require more tests & more waiting (i'm not quite sure how it will go).
the initial EEG is fairly brief, but involves the use of some techniques which seem to be more or less designed to bring on an "episode" - understandably, since if they could actually catch you in the act (so to speak) then the result would be fairly clear-cut. & it was pretty horrible - not invasive or painful, but lots of strobe lights (not ideal for an autistic person with an aversion to bright lights!) & deep breathing (essentially, self-induced hyperventilation - not ideal for an asthmatic!) which made me feel fairly peculiar.
what with all of that plus a 45 minute bus ride each way, the result is complete & utter exhaustion...
... i'm not even sure i have the energy to knit.
(now that's serious.)